Sorry To Myself

Alanis Morissette

to whom to I owe the biggest apology?
no one's been crueler than I've been to me

For letting you decide if I indeed was desirable
for my self-love being so embarrassingly conditional
for denying myself to somehow make us compatible
for trying to fit a rectangle into a hole

to whom to I owe the biggest apology?
no one's been crueler than I've been to me

I'm sorry to myself
my apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
for treating me worse than I would anybody else

For blaming myself for your unhappiness
for my impatience when I was perfect when I was
for ignoring all the signs that I was not ready
for expecting myself to be where you wanted me to be

to whom to I owe the biggest apology?
no one's been crueler than I've been to me

I'm sorry to myself
my apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
for treating me worse than I would anybody else

When I wonder which crime is the biggest
forgetting you or forgetting myself?
had I heeded the wisdom of the latter
I would have naturally loved the former

For ignoring you, my highest voices
for smiling when my strife was all too obvious
for being so disassociated from my body
for not letting go when that would have been the kindest thing

to whom to I owe the biggest apology?
no one's been crueler than I've been to me

I'm sorry to myself
my apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
for treating me worse than I would anybody else

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